Summertime

A good semester, a dream fulfilled and summertime love. Its been way too long since I've written and I need to get this out some how so here it goes! I FINALLY WENT TO FRANCE!!! It was a vision trip with CRU at my university. It was the absolute best week of my life to date. We spent most of our time in Montpellier, about ten miles north of the Mediterranean. We went out everyday and talked to the college students there, asking them questions and disscussing spirituality, life, etc. trying to share our faith with them. a few students are still very involved with the ministry on campus, called Agape. I can't wait to see what God does with their ministry. The last day of our trip, we spent in Paris <3 . It was the most magical day of my life. I could feel God's blessings showering me when I was on top of the Eiffel Tower, while it was glittering against the black night sky. I couldn't hold back the tears. God kept his promises :) I had a great semester at school. I had a fantastic roommate, Laura. She is such a sweetheart and we had so many good times. Classes were alright but I grew spiritually, more than any other way. I found an amazing home church, and I love the people there so much. I feel like that is where I am supposed to be for right now..however i am home for the summer right now but I am returning in August, not for school but I am getting an apartment and will be working full time. Im so excited for this next chapter! but for right now I am working close to home with a simple summer job, saving up for an apartment. I've been soaking up as may rays as the sun will give me, reading, cleaning and trying to dive deeper into the love of God. He is so good. on a last note, this is my final month of being a teenager and its an odd feeling by I'm ready for this new responsibility of adulthood, after I have as many stupid adventures this month as possible, so I can still blame it on my ignorant teenage ways. ;) Until next time, Friends!

Christmas and Vampires

Yes, I am one of those people.

I have already started decorating for Christmas, and it all started a few days ago, a week and half before Thanksgiving.

THAT is dedication people!

Oh and on a completely different note, The 4th movie installment for the twilight saga Breaking Dawn Pt 1 was SPECTACULAR!!!!!

All the others were mediocre but this(and im saying this whole-heartedly) was THE best movie i have ever seen. Paralleled the book in almost every way and did the story justice... FINALLY. :)

let it snow, let it snow, let it snow

1. It finally started snowing outside, and this time i think its staying till April.

2. The 4th installment in the Twilight movies is coming out Thursday at midnight and yes, i will be one of those crazed people waiting at the movie theater.

3. Ive been wanting to take up crochet for a long time. There is just something about being able to make your own blankets, hats, scarves etc. thats always appealed to me and i finally bought myself a hook and yarn and i made my first crochet chain!!...but then i tried to do the 2nd row..safe to say it failed..miserably :(. oh well, i will just have one of my more experienced friends show me the tricks of the trade.

4. im now looking for yet ANOTHER job. Oh Lord have mercy on me in my search, I need to have at least some funds for spring semester, at least until i can get a job there. The Lord provides. "For I know the plans I have for you, plans to give you a hope and a future.." well, there you go.

5. I HOPE we can go to Michigan for New Years and visit my sisters. I miss them so much and I could use some encouragement from them about college. They are so wise and they almost always have the right thing to say even if sometimes i dont want to hear it. i love them :)

6. Ive been off of facebook for a little over a month now..?? i think? not to sure but specifics dont matter. I love the freedom i feel from it, not so ingested in everyones lives but instead, im living my own and getting things done and organizing my lists. I can go to bed feeling accomplished :)

AND LAST BUT NOT LEAST, lucky #7. I have decided to not pursue any relationship with any guy at school, passed a friendship, for at least my whole first semester. I dont want to be distracted and absorbed into a guy and lose focus on God or my school work, i refuse to be led astray. and If the right guy does come along, he will have no problem waiting :)

ok I think thats it for now. Hoping to post some pics soon! Peace and Love

p.s. havent been keeping up too well on my diet and exercise...tomorrow will make up for that hopefully. yay Pilates!!!

Making the most of it

so in this time before i head off to school and being unemployed i get so sort through all the "stuff" piling up in my head, room, and life.

In my head: for instance, I made to-do lists today! Movies I want to see, books i want to read, and things i need to get. It actually had a lot of mental relief and that's always a good thing :)

In my room: Get rid of all the high school crap! and all the little giz-mos and hoo-has that i just don't need and haven't even looked at in years. as well as letters and pictures with people i no longer talk to. lots of space now...for all my other crap.

In my life: i'm definitely finding out who my true friends are. And im "weeding" the negative people out of my life. It is getting hard because some of them i grew close to and have come to realize they can't be trusted and its a rocky road to tread, but a necessary road to go down.


and one thing that i want to make the most of with my time is weight-loss.
Before i go off to school in 2 months, i want to look, feel and BE healthy!
it will just be a good way of starting over. Tomorrow is October 1st and my 1st official day of diet and exercise! so wish me luck!

ill write more later.

COLLEGE BOUND!!...again.

Well I'm not leaving yet, But it is official:

I have been accepted to the University of North Dakota, home of the Fighting Sioux! :) and I'm so excited to finally have direction.

Last weekend I went back to Oak Hills for "Soul Cleanup" which is a day help each semester where classes are canceled and instead there are speakers, praise and worship and everyone prepares the campus for winter. I have a marvelous time and after the lovely nostalgic weekend, I considered going back next semester to OHCC.

But after realizing that I shouldn't make such and important decision that fast and based on a magical couple of days.
And as soon as I got home, I found that I had received my acceptance letter, while I had been gone.
That was good enough for me. I'm going to UND! :)
I already met the lovely girl I will eventually call my roommate, Laura. Im very excited to see what God makes of that relationship.

I've sworn off men for a while. This is the time to focus on me and i don't need any distractions or anyone holding me back or tying me down.

Im ready for this.
Im ready for the future.
Im ready for the next phase.
Im ready for change.

What does God want?

What does God want? I haven't asked myself that in so long.

probably because when i used to ask that all the time, I never seemed to get an answer. So eventually i stopped asking. So ever since i've just been doing what makes sense to me.

but I'm just more confused than ever.
so im ready to stop and ask again.
i just need to find my quiet place.

the C word

ahh yes. the "c" word.
college.
I got back on Sunday from my weekend at UND(north dakota). I went to sort out problems they were having with my paper work and had a tour of campus and stayed with a good friend who attends there. Between the tour and what shes shown me of the college, im blown away, i love it so much and cant wait to get back to school and be productive! i do have some worries however.
I do NOT want to get involved with someone. They will only destract me from my studies and focusing on God.
secondly, I want the right friends. Christian students or mentors to encourage me in my faith walk and hold me accountable.
and last, i want a job part time so i may also make money and not just be spending it constantly and building up my student loans. God please help me with my students loans!

but overall i am very excited for this next phase in my life and i pray that it brings about good things and positive experiences.

hope to write more soon.