11 Oh Danny Boy

I am so sorry but i have not written in my blog for the longest time. So much has happened over the last few months. But all that happened is past so there is no point in dwelling about it on here. I will just tell you about the recent past and the hope to be near future...and the far ahead future.

School is very hard but, i am giving it all i can. I have an AP geo project powerpoint on religion due tomorrow. then a paper due next week on the interactions between Judaism and Islam. happy happy joy joy. I just finished ny AP english essay on Chaucer's "The Canterbury tales". I had to prepare a lesson wher ewe read a sonnet to the class tomorrow and interpret what it means. I have MANY more projects to finish and essays to write by next week. prayers are appreciated.

One sad event in recent history is that it was discovered that i actually wont be able to raise enough money to go to Europe. It is really heartbreaking, and some of you may ask why? what in the world is soo appealing about Spain, France, and Germany? well, thats ok..because honestly i don't care what most opinions are about europe, i love it. you can deal. im sorry if thats blunt or offensive, but you cant explain it when your heart is just somewhere.
However, there IS an alternative now. Instead, my parents are taking me on a cruise to Alaska for graduation. I wont get to go to the Louvre, but i will be able to see the Van Gough art exhibit they have on board the ship! why they would put MILLIONS of dollars worth of paintings on a ship that could sink...i dont know. but Im fine with it if they are.

ok so. On a completely different note. Lets talk about love lives.
I dont have one-except with God-and thats ok. Although i wont lie, I have become good friends with a guy who would make an AMAZING boyfriend(and eventual spouse for someone). However, i dont know where he is at with God. A LOT (majority) of you are probably saying to yourselves "oh, thats not good, rule him out, take him off you list, make him walk the plank", or something to that effect. Yes, i understand that is the most important thing and NO, i wont date someone that does not have a relationship with Christ as strong as mine, unless they are even closer him(which is really hot). God comes first. This guy, lets name Daniel, for the sake of privacy. well, danny boy and I are good friends, but that doesnt stop girls from liking him. Honestly, i get jealous and we arent even "together". I feel like this is very "junior high-ish" written out, but there are a lot of factors that complicate things and make it a very difficult situation when others interfere in our friendship. A lot or people would rather him just be single than in a relationship with someone other than them.

Well, thats some of the current life in a nutshell.
and Christmas is coming!!

write more soon (hopefully).

10 Hope and Heartache

HOPE : Well, tonight at work someone could have possibly been made very rich. A customer came in and was paying for gas. The conversation (condensed) consisted of that the customer had inherited A LOT of money-the stock to all iron ore in northern MN. The Stock and Bond papers looked real. I don't know what to make of it. I hope he wasn't a nut case. He supposedly already gave A LOT of money away to those who need it. ...again ...I don't know...He wants to get my friend out of her debt. I pray he comes through for her....God please be in this situation.

HEARTACHE: And for another update. I went out on a date about two weeks about with a friend. Ironically, its cliche i know, he is captain of the football team and I'm captain of the cheerleading squad. HA! and i thought i wouldn't give in to high school stereotypes...anyways, it went good, but i knew beforehand that the relationship wasn't gonna go anywhere. But apparently he didn't.I had gotten his hopes up and let him down. We are still friends but i just don't see the point in just inviting in high school heartache and a lot of wasted time for a relatioship. Dont get me wrong- my friend is a great guy, and i love LOVE but, he is meant for someone else and Im not ready to be somebody's someone....


P.s. I have a lot of hard AP (advanced placement) classes and I don't want to get overworked and overspent on energy. Please pray for me. Blessings Galore on you

09 love is here

I got a puppy.
Charlotte Love is her name. She is a Pekingese Yorkshire Dockson and possibly the cutest thing I've seen in my Life.

Well today i just have random thoughts that i just want to get out.
-Im watching Project runway and I come up with designs for dresses, that are so much prettier that a lot of the onesa that are on there, o just can not sew to save my life. Hopefully that will change one day.

-Senior Year starts officially on this next Tuesday. I'm so incredibly happy to finally start because well, I've been waiting to be a senior for my entire Schooling career. But its scary too because it is a REALLY important year and not just for school. I need to be a person that made a difference in the lives of her school mates. i dont want to be dispersed at the end of the year thinking, i wish i said this to them, and that to this person. I Don't want to regret the person i was for them.

- i got a job. I got a job to get money to go to Spain, France , and Germany. BUT, i need a car. and if i get a car, I'll have to pay for gas, insurance, repairs, etc. If i do that, i will not have enough money to go to Europe next summer. It tears me up inside to think that my peers will be in PARIS while I'm still sitting in BD, Minnesota. I'm sorry, but i am too in love with Europe already to pass up the chance to go. I would forever regret it if i didn't go. "oh, you will get over it" NO! you do not understand the love i have for their culture, architecture, languages, Fashion, art, and everything that surrounds it. the history alone, is something to love. Its an affection I cant really control, I just love it

08 Miracles on Northpoint Lane

Well, on saturday my mom and I went to Pioneer/Farmer's Festival. There was a tractor parade. You cant get much more small town than that.
But, that isn't the reason behind this story. It begins when we got home.
Mom and i arrived home around 5-ish and it was a long day. I was tired and hungry, by no means ready for something significant to happen. God always has other plans. She was going through the mail and pulled out a big packet from Northwestern College- a college i could only dream of going to. "wow, these people must really want you." Northwestern has been sending me a lot of mail lately.
I opened it and the 3 Miracles started from there.
1:Inside the the packet there was an admission application, All my recommendation forms I'd need to give to my superiors,an informational on majors lookbook, and a letter telling me that they want me to apply because I have "Skills, the ability, and attitude" to attend their college. the sum total of the packet is $4o. they sent it to me for free.
2:NWC is an expensive college of $30,000 dallars a year. and my family just does not have that king of money. But, While i was looking at the "Financial aid" section of the info book, and there is a 10% tuition discount for students if either of thier parent work in Ministry! Two of my Three do! my Stepdad is a pastor and christian educator, and my mom is a church office manager...amazing. Not to mention the numerous scholarships I qualify for.
3:I had been worried about my ACT score. I took the test my junior year and scored a 19. i know. Not many colleges accept students with that low of a score. I am not by anymeans a slow student. I am just not good with big pressure tests. But, in another section of the info book it stated that to attend NWC, you must have an ACT score of at least 18!... GOD IS AMAZING!!

when i foung this out, i just about peed myself(not literal). I went and told my mom and started to cry...

There is a three-week turn around for acceptance letters for the people who received those packets...and i am praying with all my heart that i am accepted to Northwestern College. Its too perfect to not be for me...

07 Rain Drops

" Rain drops on roses and whiskers on kittens, bright copper kettles and warm woolen mittens, brown paper packages tied up with string, these are a few of my favorite things".....

I absolutely love The Sound of Music. The story itself is so great. I grew up watching this movie. Every time i was scared or sick or even just bored, i would watch it and feel so much better. Some people completely loath it and think its just a cheesy smile-n-sing fest, when its not. I don't know why self-proclaimed "open-minded" people, shut it out...i guess they are just dumb and culturally deprived.

do you agree?

p.s. Barack Obama should watch this movie. He needs a little "Do Re Mi" if you know what i mean... :D

06 Work in progress

Im a teenager with a social life+A social life costs money+And I have none=JOB SEARCH!

yea..And im highly considering the local drug store. It is a convienent location, close to school so i can go there right after it lets out. My calculator shows that it will take about two months to save up for a car..a good junk car. But thats ok. Its my first car and if i get into a car accident(which i pray i dont) I wont have to repair a really nice car.
I will also have to contribute to the insurance payments and of course, pay for gas. Im going to be working my butt off but it is a nessecary thing to get started on my own life. the next step to independance. I will have to learn about paying bills, managing my money and saving it.
This next year is going to be a real challenge. I'll need to make choices between what is right, and what is easy. But if i want to be a strong, independant adult, it is a step that i am willing to take...God always provides a way.

Amelia

05 Make a Wish

Kelsie Roth. Beautiful. Caring. a Best Friend.

she is such a blessing to me... The most heartfelt thought anyone has ever put into making a birthday special..She had me write everything that i love down on a piece of paper and she made me a huge birthday card with everything i love. she drew things, cut them out of magazines and made a collage of it all. 6-7 hours of labor to make my birthday special...not including the awesome childhood fort she made in her bedroom for us... we made those together when we were little... She is so amazing and i would never ask for anyone different.

Thank you love

04 Say Cheese

My brother Justin is a Photographer and yesterday he was nice enough to take some of my senior pictures...for free, i might add...and so that got me thinking about all the stuff the people in my family can do. and you know what? planning my wedding(when comes time) is going to be a breeze!

I have a brother to take pictures.
Another brother to handle where the plands and landscaping goes.
A mother who does flower arrangments and is church office manager.
A stepdad who is a pastor.
A sister-in-law who loves to bake.
A Dad who could print the invitations.
Another sister-in-law who is a seamstress and could help w/ the dress....

i've got it made....thank you God!

03 new days more tomorrows

I realize my last post was a bit intense, but I have gotten really fed up with the types of people mentioned in there. But i still love them. I'm not perfect, just honest...

Well, on a happy note, today Im going to the beach with Dane, Kayla & Penelope to the beach(my bro and his Family). This will be good because i have only been to the beach twice since i have been in Florida. And i only have about 3 weeks left so i better get cracken....

02: A little white truth

In the world of teenagers, everyone you talk to claims to be "original", "unique", and they say they have something new to offer...

From what i have seen, these are the people who give in the most to Social Culture. People always try and associate themselves with a "higher class" by appearance, attitiude, or even just an all-over fake facade. "omg! i love Hollister" they want to fit in, or "TWLOHA, is amazing!" when they have know idea the story behind it, they just know that everyone is wearing it...

This is elementary and junior high stuff people!!! let alone you doing it when we are in High school and even some of you in College.

I am not saying everyone who wears brand Names and TWLOHA is a conformist pig. People who find their entire identity in it though... the people that dont even know what THEY like any more... or just an attachment to material things....it can all burn, but who you are cant. niether am I saying that you are not unique...Everyone is. God designed everyone differently.

Whether you agree/believe or not, God created you and He knows what will happen in your life.
He knit you together inside your mother's womb. He knows you better than you know yourself.

To know the Lord is to know yourself. I can vouch for that and can give you many people to contact that can say that the Lord has done the same thing in their lives.

Humanity can deny it till they are blue in the face, but God is the answer to any struggle, addiction, fight, doubt, anything...

"how can you say that? the world is burning and God just sits there and does nothing!"
My answer:

Say a man is having trouble with his truck and the engine is just shot to hell...He takes it to a Mechanic.. he comes back a couple hours later and his engine is spread out over this long table, broken into all these different oil and sludge-covered peices...he cant tell what is what...but the Mechanic can see this "mess" but He sees how it all fits together when we cant. God is the world's Mechanic and he renews all the ''filth-covered" broken peices, cleanses them, and puts them back together in a way that we ignorant people wouldnt have been capable of imagining...

And for those of you who say "well, thats all grand and what not...but Im content with my life and everything is pretty much going great, so...God can do His thing but I'll do mine..."
Your life may seem content, but when your world does crash and burn , which i can promise you will happen without the presence of Jesus Christ, you will have nowhere else to turn but the arms of Jesus, someone who loves you more than you could possibly encounter in the world.

And for the ones who think " i'll turn to God when my life is over so i dont go to Hell. He wants to control it too much, i want control of my own life and im going to enjoy it while i can"...the Bible says that our days our numbered and YES life is too short to make the mistake of not giving your heart to God. How many times have you known or heard of a person dying in a car accident...Obviously unplanned.. I have known way too many.

Simply telling Christ that you realize that you need Him in your life. You may not be broken or damaged, you may be lost with everything and not know how you are but if you just ask Him to come into your life and do whatever he needs to do to make it right, will change your life. Just come to Him whole heartedly. Get youself a good Bible, I recomend NIV Life Application Study Bible, its amazing.

then when you finally know God, you will finally know yourself...

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This blog is the chronicals of me. It can contian anything from stories of a day to a memory or simply a joke i might hear that day. Its not meant to be epic in any way, just me